when everything first happened, i didnt knew it was that bad.
when situation worsen, i didnt knew it would be this long.
i just kept thinking, "it will be okay, things will be fine, everything will turn out alright.."
& i was even more certain after the award ceremony when the 3 went to receive the award meant for the 5."Always keep the faith"
becomes a part of my life
No matter what happens, " keep the faith faith faith faith faith"
thats what i'll be repeating through my mind like an old spoiled casette tape
as time goes on & on & on...
despite what i've heard
i remained unmoved.
but today, after all the dramas & happenings
the fog that has always been seperating me from them seems to cleared up little by little
& now, it all seems rather clear to me.
what i see, what i am seeing now,
is 2 difference paths
2 different directions
2 different skies
& i realised,
my hopes for the 5 together again as 1 seems to move closer to the edge of the cliff now.
yet, not impossible.
this time, i will not be like a stubborn little girl who just blindly believes that the 5 will be back soon.
i'm gonna move on.
damn fucking bad.
but this is what i see, & what i hear from both parties.
its hard, its so hard
& i am sure every single cassie out there is not having any better time than me
but i'm not gonna live like that anymore.
as much as how much i would hate to acknowledge the fact that TVXQ is now a duo
I'm gonna accept it.
at least for now.
strong enough to accept the reality in front of me.
so now, i'm officially announcing,
me, has 2 favourites.
TVXQ & JYJ.
yet i am glad, that they're doing what they believe is right.
& i'll always support them.
like i'd always did
right from the start, till the end
be it in 2 groups or 1
there'll always & only be the 5 of 'em.
not gonna love any of 'em more, not gonna love any of 'em less
not gonna take any sides
at least not among these 2 groups.
yea, now i'm calling them 2 groups...
The past will 5ever be most precious, unforgettable & irreplaceable.
cause everything's too miraculous.
i'll never let go of that feeling.
i hate making promises cause i've never had the confidence to fufill it.
but i wanna make this promise.
its a promise i wanna make, & keep.
just like keeping the faith.
though now i'm gonna move on with TVXQ & JYJ
does not mean that i'll stop keeping the faith.